Kathryn January 27th, 2011
Isn’t it wonderful how on an ordinary day, doing an ordinary thing you can have an experience that defines you, molds you and solidifies who you are. I had one such experience today, it is something I hope stays with me forever and also something I’m sure will happen over and over again.
A friend asked for advice (on Facebook!!), and I debated whether or not to give it….. I decided it was something I felt strongly about and so began to respond to her, part of my response reflected how I feel about the divine design of families, in particular the fact that children need both a mother AND a father. I also wrote about how restricting, tiresome, and all-consuming it is to hold a grudge and then I shared with her some wonderful examples I have had in my life.
After I wrote and was thinking about the conversation, I realised how strongly I felt about these things, and then suddenly, and almost shockingly, I realised that I didn’t always feel this strongly, and that somewhere in the past 10 or so years I changed and am now a completely different person. I became overwhelmed with gratitude for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the person it allows me to be. I am grateful for the many people who helped me change and who have made me a better person by their example.
As I’ve grown older, I have heard, and probably said, many times how I don’t really feel any different to when I was 17 or 18. Well today, that has never been farther from the truth. I feel that if that girl were before me today, I wouldn’t recognise her.
Today I have become so grateful for the fact that as human beings we are in control of our lives. If we want to change, we can. We have the ability to master our selves. We can decide who we want to become and through work, effort, and patience, we can become that person. How amazingly grateful I am that I am not the same person I was. If I was then I have no doubt that I wouldn’t have the amazing husband and son that I have today. I would not be secure in my knowledge of families and their role in our eternal existence.
Right now I am more grateful than ever to know who I am, where I am going and what this life is all about. I know what matters most, and I will treasure that for now and into eternity.
Somewhere in those years I decided who I wanted to be and I made the change. Today I woke up and realised that I AM that person – what an amazing experience that has been. I have much more growing and changing to do, but if I make those changes I will grow.
This may not make sense to many (or any of you) but for me it has been one of those feelings and experiences that is hard to put in to words, and will stay with me forever.